Sorry, I wasn't trying to talk down to you. Obviously you've got your own burdens of command, and so do a lot of the people we went to school with. I guess I was just thinking of people who are in charge of the countries embroiled in this whole mess. Teach isn't quite the leader of a country, but between advising Dimitri and having the Knights of Seiros backing them, and no Rhea in sight, they're practically a fourth power at the table by this point.
I just meant that at the end of the day, you serve Dimitri. And you take orders from him, or at least people working with him - I don't know if he was commanding you guys directly when he was at his lowest. You won't be judged the same way for following Dimitri's orders, even if they happen to be bad, that Dimitri will be judged for giving them. There's no higher authority for him, either. He can confer with advisors, but at the end of the day all he can do is try to decide what's right and wrong, and then command a nation to act on that decision. That's a different weight to carry than leading a battalion.
Ugh, I'm just rambling, aren't I? And probably offending you. Sorry.
I think you're just making a mountain out of a molehill. Everybody has massive decisions to make. And hell, maybe it's worse just being in charge of a battalion. Think about it -- our decisions are going to weigh on you in the end. If we make a bad call, it goes back to Dimitri, who made a bad call as well by putting me in that role.
I think it's apples to oranges in the end, but there are some similarities. And there is a lot of weight that comes with any position like that.
Mostly, huh? That's not too bad, but it still seems pretty far from ideal.
Anyway, don't think I haven't noticed you've switched to writing all formally. I don't know if that's from the gravity of the subject or if it's a sign of your mental state, but either way, I feel like maybe I'm doing something wrong if you're not able to relax like you normally do.
So, want to talk about something less unpleasant? I shouldn't be brooding over this stuff anyway, much less burdening other people with it.
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Date: 2021-01-11 11:16 am (UTC)I just meant that at the end of the day, you serve Dimitri. And you take orders from him, or at least people working with him - I don't know if he was commanding you guys directly when he was at his lowest. You won't be judged the same way for following Dimitri's orders, even if they happen to be bad, that Dimitri will be judged for giving them. There's no higher authority for him, either. He can confer with advisors, but at the end of the day all he can do is try to decide what's right and wrong, and then command a nation to act on that decision. That's a different weight to carry than leading a battalion.
Ugh, I'm just rambling, aren't I? And probably offending you. Sorry.
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Date: 2021-01-13 01:56 am (UTC)I think it's apples to oranges in the end, but there are some similarities. And there is a lot of weight that comes with any position like that.
But I'm not offended. Mostly.
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Date: 2021-01-14 03:00 am (UTC)Anyway, don't think I haven't noticed you've switched to writing all formally. I don't know if that's from the gravity of the subject or if it's a sign of your mental state, but either way, I feel like maybe I'm doing something wrong if you're not able to relax like you normally do.
So, want to talk about something less unpleasant? I shouldn't be brooding over this stuff anyway, much less burdening other people with it.