That's it exactly! That's what I want him to understand. The actions were monstrous enough, but his mental state was so altered that it wasn't because he is himself inherently monstrous. He'd never do those things in his normal state of mind, so he shouldn't treat his everyday self as a monster. If anything, he's just a man who has lapsed into monstrousness when he's been pushed too far, which...honestly, I wonder if everyone isn't like that. Surely we all have our breaking points, past which all logic and ethics may well break down? We just haven't all been pushed to it.
If you're saying you had one of those 'canon update' things Dirk talks about, like Jane had where she went to sleep for a week or so and then woke up after having lived for some longer amount of time back home...well, that sort of makes sense, in a way. A lot of time back home passed for you, but no real time passed for you here, did it? A week in time that you weren't awake for, at most. So...why would the stuff with Jack, here, feel like it happened in your past? From your perspective here, it's still very recent. If you'd been living all that time here, dealing with Jack and the place where your relationship with him had happened, then maybe you'd be over it, or at least further along in getting over it. And you're saying Jack disappeared while you were gone, right? So you never got closure...but you didn't know you'd never get that closure until you came back here. You've only had since waking up to deal with being denied that. I'm guessing that's been a lot less time than the six or seven years you spent back home.
Waking up here again must have been like being dropped right back into the thick of that specific part of your life, with no warning. Of course that's going to affect you. It'd be weirder if it didn't.
Do you think this stuff keeps breaking into unrelated conversations with other people because you don't have specific times or people to talk with this about? I'm just saying that maybe if you accommodate your obvious need to discuss these things in specific times and ways, you can at least direct how and when the outbursts happen. When dams keep breaking, then channels are the next best option.
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(Please no overt references to not remembering VR during canon updates to avoid pime taradoxes btw)
Date: 2021-03-06 01:10 am (UTC)If you're saying you had one of those 'canon update' things Dirk talks about, like Jane had where she went to sleep for a week or so and then woke up after having lived for some longer amount of time back home...well, that sort of makes sense, in a way. A lot of time back home passed for you, but no real time passed for you here, did it? A week in time that you weren't awake for, at most. So...why would the stuff with Jack, here, feel like it happened in your past? From your perspective here, it's still very recent. If you'd been living all that time here, dealing with Jack and the place where your relationship with him had happened, then maybe you'd be over it, or at least further along in getting over it. And you're saying Jack disappeared while you were gone, right? So you never got closure...but you didn't know you'd never get that closure until you came back here. You've only had since waking up to deal with being denied that. I'm guessing that's been a lot less time than the six or seven years you spent back home.
Waking up here again must have been like being dropped right back into the thick of that specific part of your life, with no warning. Of course that's going to affect you. It'd be weirder if it didn't.
Do you think this stuff keeps breaking into unrelated conversations with other people because you don't have specific times or people to talk with this about? I'm just saying that maybe if you accommodate your obvious need to discuss these things in specific times and ways, you can at least direct how and when the outbursts happen. When dams keep breaking, then channels are the next best option.