Apparently, he was planning to wait before making any "overtly" romantic gestures, I just called him on it early.
[Grant pauses, thinking carefully, before he responds. He doesn't want Claude to come out of this thinking that he just wasn't convincing enough; there are way too many factors at play to act like it's that simple, and it isn't fair to Claude besides.]
Honestly, it's not as simple as him being more persuasive, or the fact that I'm interested; I realized when we were talking that I felt pretty okay about telling him something I've generally been keeping a secret, since I'd known him longer than anyone else here other than Chip, and as we went from there I realized just how much that was feeding into my fears about this.
by the way, I realize mentioning a secret here and not telling you about it might be kind of a dick move, so this is also me telling you that I think I can tell you about it too if you want to know. But i'm not dumping it on you if you don't want to hear about it.
Yeah, I guess that's about it. That weird kinda state where part of me keeps thinking I might change my mind, but I'm pretty sure I've come to a decision, y'know?
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Date: 2020-12-30 11:47 pm (UTC)[Grant pauses, thinking carefully, before he responds. He doesn't want Claude to come out of this thinking that he just wasn't convincing enough; there are way too many factors at play to act like it's that simple, and it isn't fair to Claude besides.]
Honestly, it's not as simple as him being more persuasive, or the fact that I'm interested; I realized when we were talking that I felt pretty okay about telling him something I've generally been keeping a secret, since I'd known him longer than anyone else here other than Chip, and as we went from there I realized just how much that was feeding into my fears about this.
by the way, I realize mentioning a secret here and not telling you about it might be kind of a dick move, so this is also me telling you that I think I can tell you about it too if you want to know. But i'm not dumping it on you if you don't want to hear about it.
Yeah, I guess that's about it. That weird kinda state where part of me keeps thinking I might change my mind, but I'm pretty sure I've come to a decision, y'know?