[Claude stares at his screen for a moment. That's...Dimitri had shown interest in Grant? Not that Grant doesn't deserve that, Claude's talked up his virtues and his positive connections with Dimitri himself, but...he hadn't thought Dimitri was interested in anyone. Or that, if he might be, that it could be...someone else. Not that it would have mattered in that case, of course. Obviously.
Something he'd never given permission to grow quietly curls up and dies. And even if it had been doomed anyway, and Claude had known it all along...it still feels like a loss.
But his feelings on that aren't anything Grant deserves to be saddled with. They certainly don't have any right to interfere with anything that might make Dimitri or Grant happy. So he breathes out slowly, buries the shriveled corpse within his own mind, and moves on.]
I never would've expected Dimitri to make the first move! But I think that just goes to show how important you are to him. I guess it goes to show that even I didn't appreciate that fact quite enough, huh?
I don't know if he's just more persuasive than I am, or if maybe the reassurance about your age means more coming from someone you're into despite your best efforts...but I'm glad he got through to you. What's important isn't your ages, it's that you guys are on the same page and can make each other happy. And you've been nothing but good for Dimitri, so I really think you're spooking yourself over nothing thinking you could ever be bad for him.
That said, I'm guessing that if you've been thinking about it for a few days, that means you've made up your mind. Whether or not you've admitted it to yourself, since you still sound unsure. But I don't think you'd have contacted me to apologize for our discussion unless you'd already decided on some level that I needed one, which means you're going ahead with it - right? I mean, I'd wonder if you were coming to me for advice, but I didn't leave too much of an impression on you last time when I gave it...and, let's face it, as someone who encouraged you already that the age difference doesn't matter, what could you be coming to me for except hoping for me to reassure you of the same thing again? You already know what I'll say.
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Or that, if he might be, that it could be...someone else. Not that it would have mattered in that case, of course. Obviously.Something he'd never given permission to grow quietly curls up and dies. And even if it had been doomed anyway, and Claude had known it all along...it still feels like a loss.
But his feelings on that aren't anything Grant deserves to be saddled with. They certainly don't have any right to interfere with anything that might make Dimitri or Grant happy. So he breathes out slowly, buries the shriveled corpse within his own mind, and moves on.]
I never would've expected Dimitri to make the first move! But I think that just goes to show how important you are to him. I guess it goes to show that even I didn't appreciate that fact quite enough, huh?
I don't know if he's just more persuasive than I am, or if maybe the reassurance about your age means more coming from someone you're into despite your best efforts...but I'm glad he got through to you. What's important isn't your ages, it's that you guys are on the same page and can make each other happy. And you've been nothing but good for Dimitri, so I really think you're spooking yourself over nothing thinking you could ever be bad for him.
That said, I'm guessing that if you've been thinking about it for a few days, that means you've made up your mind. Whether or not you've admitted it to yourself, since you still sound unsure. But I don't think you'd have contacted me to apologize for our discussion unless you'd already decided on some level that I needed one, which means you're going ahead with it - right? I mean, I'd wonder if you were coming to me for advice, but I didn't leave too much of an impression on you last time when I gave it...and, let's face it, as someone who encouraged you already that the age difference doesn't matter, what could you be coming to me for except hoping for me to reassure you of the same thing again? You already know what I'll say.