So basically, you're letting your own ideas of how other people perceive you color how you react to them, rather than simply being yourself. Which I can understand, certainly, say, if you're trying to be diplomatic or win someone over, but...acting that way all the time, not just as a conscious decision to try to achieve an end? That sounds exhausting. It also sounds like a really good way to lose your way to knowing who the real you even is, especially if you're wearing different faces for different people.
After facing discrimination back home, I'm guessing you've had plenty of times where you didn't exactly have the luxury of not being concerned with what people thought of you. And then Tyler kind of reinforced that idea for you here, probably, even if you probably don't face that kind of discrimination anymore. I'm betting that's going to be a hard habit to break.
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Date: 2021-03-31 04:06 am (UTC)After facing discrimination back home, I'm guessing you've had plenty of times where you didn't exactly have the luxury of not being concerned with what people thought of you. And then Tyler kind of reinforced that idea for you here, probably, even if you probably don't face that kind of discrimination anymore. I'm betting that's going to be a hard habit to break.