Felix...I'm going to tell you what I told Sylvain. And it's that when we first got here...you didn't know me, either. You hadn't said anything to Sylvain yet. The people we are at home are the people who first arrived here. Nothing that's happened here is anything that doesn't have just as much potential to happen at home.
You really think that because you and Sylvain haven't gotten together yet as of Sylvain's last memory - haven't had the chance to, when you two have been fighting a war - doesn't mean that Felix Fraldarius, back in Fodlan, won't ever work up the nerve. That Felix won't be able to stand the sight of Sylvain being miserable, the thought of him going home to a family you know he hates and that you already hate yourself, any more than the Felix here could. You haven't done anything as of winning the war, maybe, but I don't believe for a second that the Felix back home will let the grass grow under his feet forever. Don't you think maybe back home you just had to wait longer to be free of a war distracting you?
As for us...that's tougher. I'm a continent away. I won't say that things developing back home the same way they did here is...likely, or easy. But I also won't say it's impossible, either. If Fodlan would ever need ambassadors to Almyra, it'd be either you or Sylvain, wouldn't it? You'd be perfect in particular. And if it was either one of you that was sent to Almyra for something, the other one would go. And Dimitri's obviously going to meet with me as a fellow king at times. We'll interact back home. And while the circumstances might be different, we'll have the same potential there as we did here...and you know what we've managed to become here.
We're the same people wherever we are, sunshine. I don't think only one incredibly specific set of circumstances could ever lead to us meshing together the way we have. And just because something hasn't happened yet doesn't mean it never can, or never will.
I want to stay here, too, as it happens - there's a lot of things I'd be forced to leave behind here, with no recourse to get them back at home. But I don't think we'd lose everything. I certainly don't think the four of us would be totally without hope to have there the same kinds of bright futures we hope for here. This isn't the only world where things can work out and we can be happy, or the only world in which certain actions and decisions between the four of us could ever have happened. I don't want you to tell yourself - or anyone else - that it is.
But also...I don't want you to spend the time we have together, now, completely focused on fighting against some bleak future you're afraid of. We don't know if this is all the time we have together or not, or how much time it is that we have. But if you spend it miserable and terrified and chasing after impossibilities to protect the present, are you even going to be able to enjoy the present for what it is? Time you spend hunting a god to make impossible demands so you can stay with me and Dimitri and Sylvain...is time you're not spending with us. How can you preserve your current happiness if you're already sacrificing it?
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Date: 2021-03-11 02:01 am (UTC)You really think that because you and Sylvain haven't gotten together yet as of Sylvain's last memory - haven't had the chance to, when you two have been fighting a war - doesn't mean that Felix Fraldarius, back in Fodlan, won't ever work up the nerve. That Felix won't be able to stand the sight of Sylvain being miserable, the thought of him going home to a family you know he hates and that you already hate yourself, any more than the Felix here could. You haven't done anything as of winning the war, maybe, but I don't believe for a second that the Felix back home will let the grass grow under his feet forever. Don't you think maybe back home you just had to wait longer to be free of a war distracting you?
As for us...that's tougher. I'm a continent away. I won't say that things developing back home the same way they did here is...likely, or easy. But I also won't say it's impossible, either. If Fodlan would ever need ambassadors to Almyra, it'd be either you or Sylvain, wouldn't it? You'd be perfect in particular. And if it was either one of you that was sent to Almyra for something, the other one would go. And Dimitri's obviously going to meet with me as a fellow king at times. We'll interact back home. And while the circumstances might be different, we'll have the same potential there as we did here...and you know what we've managed to become here.
We're the same people wherever we are, sunshine. I don't think only one incredibly specific set of circumstances could ever lead to us meshing together the way we have. And just because something hasn't happened yet doesn't mean it never can, or never will.
I want to stay here, too, as it happens - there's a lot of things I'd be forced to leave behind here, with no recourse to get them back at home. But I don't think we'd lose everything. I certainly don't think the four of us would be totally without hope to have there the same kinds of bright futures we hope for here. This isn't the only world where things can work out and we can be happy, or the only world in which certain actions and decisions between the four of us could ever have happened. I don't want you to tell yourself - or anyone else - that it is.
But also...I don't want you to spend the time we have together, now, completely focused on fighting against some bleak future you're afraid of. We don't know if this is all the time we have together or not, or how much time it is that we have. But if you spend it miserable and terrified and chasing after impossibilities to protect the present, are you even going to be able to enjoy the present for what it is? Time you spend hunting a god to make impossible demands so you can stay with me and Dimitri and Sylvain...is time you're not spending with us. How can you preserve your current happiness if you're already sacrificing it?