You realize you're saying "I have someone to talk to this about" and "but I'm not actually talking to him about it" in the same breath, right? Maybe eventually you'll get to this subject with him, but until you do, maybe you need another person to talk about this specifically with.
I know six years can drastically change a person, but you make it sound like you and your past self are such completely different people that you're tempted to consciously act differently around people who knew the younger you, and might expect you to be someone else. Six years is roughly the amount of time it's been for me since the civil war in my country broke out, so as it happens, I have a major life event and a similar timeframe to compare to as you do. I'm certainly different, but I have to say that I don't think my base personality has shifted all that much in that time. Is that not the case with you? Did you undergo more of a radical shift?
I mean, I understand that you appreciate that I've only known you this way, and I'm glad you like that. I'm certainly not trying to undercut that by learning a little more about the differences between current you and past you. I'm just wondering how much of a difference those six years made. Granted, for the people here who, from their perspectives, saw you make a six-year shift in attitude over the course of a week's worth of sleep, I imagine it would've seemed kind of dramatic even if it wasn't objectively that big of a change. War made me a little more serious than I used to be, and while I don't think that's a big or shocking change, if my friends saw me go from one point to the other in a week, they might be taken aback.
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Date: 2021-03-10 11:22 pm (UTC)I know six years can drastically change a person, but you make it sound like you and your past self are such completely different people that you're tempted to consciously act differently around people who knew the younger you, and might expect you to be someone else. Six years is roughly the amount of time it's been for me since the civil war in my country broke out, so as it happens, I have a major life event and a similar timeframe to compare to as you do. I'm certainly different, but I have to say that I don't think my base personality has shifted all that much in that time. Is that not the case with you? Did you undergo more of a radical shift?
I mean, I understand that you appreciate that I've only known you this way, and I'm glad you like that. I'm certainly not trying to undercut that by learning a little more about the differences between current you and past you. I'm just wondering how much of a difference those six years made. Granted, for the people here who, from their perspectives, saw you make a six-year shift in attitude over the course of a week's worth of sleep, I imagine it would've seemed kind of dramatic even if it wasn't objectively that big of a change. War made me a little more serious than I used to be, and while I don't think that's a big or shocking change, if my friends saw me go from one point to the other in a week, they might be taken aback.