Claude leans against Felix, closing his eyes. "We don't believe in the Goddess in Almyra," he murmurs. "She never really bothered with anyone or anything outside of Fodlan, and as far as I can tell, no one outside of Fodlan had any reason to care about her in turn. If anything, people back then might've resented her for only caring about one place in all the world...but that's just speculation, really. But it was a little awkward to go to school in the heart of the Church of Seiros as a non-believer, pretending I was one..."
He exhales slowly. "Even if I was inclined to believe in some higher power, though, I don't think I'd want to trust something as important as Sylvain's wellbeing to some external power. You're right - I'd rather be able to do something for him myself. But I can't." One of his hands curls into a fist. "And he's just - lying there. I could go a week without seeing him just fine if I knew he was just traveling, or staying somewhere, or doing his own thing somewhere else, but...having him right here with us and not being able to see his eyes, hear his voice...it feels so much worse than just being away from him. I can't stand it, but I can't fix it. Part of me wants to be there with him, and part of me is pretty sure I'll fall apart if I am. And I can't afford to do that."
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Date: 2021-02-22 02:23 am (UTC)He exhales slowly. "Even if I was inclined to believe in some higher power, though, I don't think I'd want to trust something as important as Sylvain's wellbeing to some external power. You're right - I'd rather be able to do something for him myself. But I can't." One of his hands curls into a fist. "And he's just - lying there. I could go a week without seeing him just fine if I knew he was just traveling, or staying somewhere, or doing his own thing somewhere else, but...having him right here with us and not being able to see his eyes, hear his voice...it feels so much worse than just being away from him. I can't stand it, but I can't fix it. Part of me wants to be there with him, and part of me is pretty sure I'll fall apart if I am. And I can't afford to do that."