"Stop telling me what I 'shouldn't have' to do and what I do or don't want." One hand clenches briefly into a fist, despite his efforts to stay calm. "You're talking like you've already decided how both of us 'should' be reacting and neither of us is living up to your expectations. That's not how it works, Claude. You feel what you feel and so do I. I don't understand why you're comparing us like this. I don't need to put anything aside to commiserate with someone else who cares about Sylvain."
Then he blinks; a flash of hurt passes over his face. "You didn't make anything worse. I was already a damn wreck. You just happened to be the one who tried to talk to me first. Do you seriously think I would try to placate you just to soothe your ego? Or that I think you of all people are stupid?"
He can almost see Dimitri's disappointed face in his mind's eye. Dammit, why can't he be nicer? He takes a slow breath and lets it out.
"Yes, I did say that. Because Jinx didn't arrive until after I'd finally gotten out of bed and spent hours trying to tire myself out. And I told her to leave too. Multiple times. She just didn't listen to me. I didn't want anyone there, and that wasn't because of anything you said. It was because I'm...whatever I am, I don't know."
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Date: 2021-02-21 07:38 am (UTC)Then he blinks; a flash of hurt passes over his face. "You didn't make anything worse. I was already a damn wreck. You just happened to be the one who tried to talk to me first. Do you seriously think I would try to placate you just to soothe your ego? Or that I think you of all people are stupid?"
He can almost see Dimitri's disappointed face in his mind's eye. Dammit, why can't he be nicer? He takes a slow breath and lets it out.
"Yes, I did say that. Because Jinx didn't arrive until after I'd finally gotten out of bed and spent hours trying to tire myself out. And I told her to leave too. Multiple times. She just didn't listen to me. I didn't want anyone there, and that wasn't because of anything you said. It was because I'm...whatever I am, I don't know."