Wow, you've really learned their whole story in-depth, huh? They won't object to you telling me all this, will they?
I'm sorry you had such a miserable time with Solus, though. It sounds like it must've been brutal on you. And I'm glad you and Emet have had better luck with each other, to the point where your experiences with him feel split between two completely different people. It...kind of reminds me of things with Dimitri, in a way.
Not that he's anything like Solus or Emet, of course, but there was a period of time not long ago where he was so lost in trauma that he was a totally different person from his normal self. A cruel, violent person who was focused on nothing but revenge against the people who he considers responsible for a massacre he was the only survivor of. He did some pretty horrible things. You've seen what he's like now, and that's much more the authentic Dimitri that was buried for...well, five whole years, to my understanding. But people who've interacted with both...honestly, they really do feel like two different people. And it's hard for me to hold the current Dimitri accountable for what the violent Dimitri did. He certainly wasn't that way by choice, and I don't think he had any real control over himself. He's even said that the dead were talking to him, goading him on, so...there's no way he was in his right mind.
Dimitri still holds himself accountable, though. I can't tell you how many times he's called himself a monster. I wonder if it might be help his guilt if he could think of the violent Dimitri and the kind Dimitri as two separate people...if only so he'd stop blaming himself for things that weren't really his fault.
Probably not, I guess. He's only just gotten his grip on reality back, I don't know that telling him to suddenly start thinking of himself as two people would be good for him.
Ah, sorry for getting sidetracked. It was just...interesting, to think of one person as two people, and I couldn't help seeing some similarities to how I think of Dimitri.
Out of curiosity...you don't make any secret of how aggravating Dirk is, but you mention he's rewarding to know. I can believe that, especially since I've known my share of aggravating-but-ultimately-worthwhile people, but what is it about him that makes him worth the aggravation to you? I've heard a lot about his good qualities, but the people I hear them from...well, I haven't really mentioned how challenging he is to them, and they haven't acknowledged it to me themselves. So I want to know what someone who does acknowledge he's a pain in the ass sees.
That said, if you go to Thace to work out your annoyance with Dirk, Thace must be a very happy man. On a very regular basis, too.
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I'm sorry you had such a miserable time with Solus, though. It sounds like it must've been brutal on you. And I'm glad you and Emet have had better luck with each other, to the point where your experiences with him feel split between two completely different people. It...kind of reminds me of things with Dimitri, in a way.
Not that he's anything like Solus or Emet, of course, but there was a period of time not long ago where he was so lost in trauma that he was a totally different person from his normal self. A cruel, violent person who was focused on nothing but revenge against the people who he considers responsible for a massacre he was the only survivor of. He did some pretty horrible things. You've seen what he's like now, and that's much more the authentic Dimitri that was buried for...well, five whole years, to my understanding. But people who've interacted with both...honestly, they really do feel like two different people. And it's hard for me to hold the current Dimitri accountable for what the violent Dimitri did. He certainly wasn't that way by choice, and I don't think he had any real control over himself. He's even said that the dead were talking to him, goading him on, so...there's no way he was in his right mind.
Dimitri still holds himself accountable, though. I can't tell you how many times he's called himself a monster. I wonder if it might be help his guilt if he could think of the violent Dimitri and the kind Dimitri as two separate people...if only so he'd stop blaming himself for things that weren't really his fault.
Probably not, I guess. He's only just gotten his grip on reality back, I don't know that telling him to suddenly start thinking of himself as two people would be good for him.
Ah, sorry for getting sidetracked. It was just...interesting, to think of one person as two people, and I couldn't help seeing some similarities to how I think of Dimitri.
Out of curiosity...you don't make any secret of how aggravating Dirk is, but you mention he's rewarding to know. I can believe that, especially since I've known my share of aggravating-but-ultimately-worthwhile people, but what is it about him that makes him worth the aggravation to you? I've heard a lot about his good qualities, but the people I hear them from...well, I haven't really mentioned how challenging he is to them, and they haven't acknowledged it to me themselves. So I want to know what someone who does acknowledge he's a pain in the ass sees.
That said, if you go to Thace to work out your annoyance with Dirk, Thace must be a very happy man. On a very regular basis, too.