Yeah, I know, and don't get me wrong, they seem like good guys. But I guess it's force of habit still making it difficult - or, well, not habit exactly, there was only so much I could do to keep it from people back home. More that, now that I have the opportunity to keep it to myself, it's a little hard to make the decision to give that up. Even if you guys' world doesn't have the same prejudices toward us as mine, it's still a little scary to tell someone I used to turn into a monster every month, you know?
But I guess we'll find out. I'm definitely going to have to tell them at some point, with us all traveling together.
More like I've been spinning in circles around it my whole life. I changed circumstances and living situations a few times growing up, and what I was being taught to think of myself (my condition, technically, but let's be real) changed with it. Took me a while to work it out as an adult after all that.
[Hahaha oh god.]
Claude, that is a fair thought and I don't mind that you brought it up, but I am absolutely not going to bite anyone sexually. You're right that it's partly an issue of habit, but, one: I'm actually not sure I'm willing to assume it's safe here? I mean, I don't show any symptoms most of the time, but given that they come back on those weekends, I'm not sure the curse isn't still in my system. For all I know, it might still be transmittable, just with the effects suppressed most of the time.
Two, Believe it or not, I already know I don't want to when it's safe; there are these curse blocking treatments people can get back home - usually they're a self-defense thing, though most people don't bother with them if they don't think they're at high risk of getting cursed, like if they've been threatened. Anyway, they are known to protect against lycanthropy infection, and I've actually had more than boyfriend start them (fine, understandable, a good precaution), and then start asking me to bite them, and each time has felt like the new worst conversation of my life. Which, the unpleasantness probably had to do with those guys kind of being weird assholes in general, but the point remains that I'd rather not bite anyone in any context.
[Of course, Grant's brain follows a similar path to the topic of Dimitri, though in a... very different way. God, he hopes Dimitri doesn't want him to bite him. It doesn't seem like he would, but it's hard to be sure? What if he does? That might get weird.
Then again, that's all assuming they even get to the point of intimacy to begin with, and neither of them concludes they've made a huge mistake before then. Hell, he hasn't even told Dimitri he wants to try it yet, what if he's changed his mind in the interim - which also seems unlikely, but what if?
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Date: 2021-01-03 06:16 pm (UTC)But I guess we'll find out. I'm definitely going to have to tell them at some point, with us all traveling together.
More like I've been spinning in circles around it my whole life. I changed circumstances and living situations a few times growing up, and what I was being taught to think of myself (my condition, technically, but let's be real) changed with it. Took me a while to work it out as an adult after all that.
[Hahaha oh god.]
Claude, that is a fair thought and I don't mind that you brought it up, but I am absolutely not going to bite anyone sexually. You're right that it's partly an issue of habit, but, one: I'm actually not sure I'm willing to assume it's safe here? I mean, I don't show any symptoms most of the time, but given that they come back on those weekends, I'm not sure the curse isn't still in my system. For all I know, it might still be transmittable, just with the effects suppressed most of the time.
Two, Believe it or not, I already know I don't want to when it's safe; there are these curse blocking treatments people can get back home - usually they're a self-defense thing, though most people don't bother with them if they don't think they're at high risk of getting cursed, like if they've been threatened. Anyway, they are known to protect against lycanthropy infection, and I've actually had more than boyfriend start them (fine, understandable, a good precaution), and then start asking me to bite them, and each time has felt like the new worst conversation of my life. Which, the unpleasantness probably had to do with those guys kind of being weird assholes in general, but the point remains that I'd rather not bite anyone in any context.
[Of course, Grant's brain follows a similar path to the topic of Dimitri, though in a... very different way. God, he hopes Dimitri doesn't want him to bite him. It doesn't seem like he would, but it's hard to be sure? What if he does? That might get weird.
Then again, that's all assuming they even get to the point of intimacy to begin with, and neither of them concludes they've made a huge mistake before then. Hell, he hasn't even told Dimitri he wants to try it yet, what if he's changed his mind in the interim - which also seems unlikely, but what if?
Fuck, now he's nervous all over again.]